To You

 

 

A world without you, but you are my world

so I'll keep looking for the world that has you. 

 

The gentle breeze brushes against my hair, the bright sun shines all over me, the whole wide world is there for me to explore.

But why do I feel empty?

The wide grass field lies around me, so wide that I can't see anything else in the horizon but the green colour of grass. I can run as fast as I want, as far as I want and no one can stop me. All of this land for myself, for me only and no one else.

But why I don't feel like running?

Maybe just one of those days, sometimes I don't feel like doing anything, just want to lie down all day. I got nothing else to do anyway.

Ah, I know what I should do now, I should drink. My throat hasn't been wet in quite a while. No water in sight, I guess my rest this afternoon is done and I should begin walking to search for some drinks.

I don't have a sense of time, I don't know how long I have been walking, but the sun is a little bit lower in the sky. Just my imagination? I'm not in a rush, why do I care about where the sun is?

My stomach is grumbling. I haven't eaten today. I graze on the grass, they're all taste the same.  But my meal time has taken a chunk of the day, before I knew it, the sun is already on the horizon. It's getting dark and my throat is getting really dry. Still, nothing in sight, not even a small puddle.

At times like this, I wish you are here with me. Where have you been? No matter how loud I cries for you, you never came. Your bags are still on my back, I will carry them to you no matter how long it takes.

I'm getting sleepy.  The sun is long gone now, the night is very dark, only the moonlight shines brightly. I'll just go to sleep, I lay down on my side in this open field with the night sky as my roof. Maybe tomorrow I'll have a better luck.

 I like to sleep. When I sleep, it's the only time I can see you again. It's the only time you appears when I cry for you. Why didn't you come during the day? I'm angry at you, but I'm just glad you're alright. I'm happy you're still here with me. But then, you leave me again.

Some noises wakes me up. I'm not seeing anything around me, my vision is not great at night. But I can see a small light in the distance. Is there people there? I don't like them, they're all bad people, only you are not.

What is this sounds? It's too faint for me to hear clearly? Screams? Metal clang? Is it? No way, could it be... you're there?

 I don't wait a second more. I struggles to get up but when I do, I rushes to you as fast as I can. I want to see you, I want you to hug me like you used to. I just want to know that in this big empty world, it still has you.

A sudden loud explosion and the fireball startled me a bit but doesn't slow my pace to you. But I don't know where to go. I run into the chaos of the night. I slipped through the human who are fighting each other. They are not a concern to me, I don't want to take part in the fighting, I just want to find my human in this battlefield. But as always, they attacked me for no reason. An arrow lands on my thigh, I screams through the pain. No matter what, I must keep standing.

But why can't I find you? I don't recognize any of these men. Suddenly a man tries to climb on my back. Angry, I  kicked him hard in the stomach with my hind leg. Only you can, not another soul.

I look up, a giant fireball is coming down at me. I run away, I must not fall tonight but I was hit by one of my kind who rammed into me accidentally and I fall to the ground. I looked at him, panicking on the ground, cannot get up due to his injured leg. Sadly, that's the fate for our kind. Once, I thought I was gonna die in the battlefield like this young one would tonight. Somehow I survive till this day and I shall survive another day until I meet my goal.

I'm getting tired. More arrows are stuck in my body. More wound from the slashes of the sharp swords. I keep going strong running around to find you. But maybe, the end is near. My legs are giving up on me. But not my willpower that stops me, but the falling boulder that smashed into me and knocked me unconscious.

I thought that was the end of me. But once again, I open my eyes to greet the world. Like that day, when I woke up in a battlefield, you were suddenly nowhere to be found and today you're still not around. The sun is back up, the fighting has stopped, the screams are no longer dominating the air, only some small groans of the dying soldiers can be heard all over the battlefield.

My legs are weak. My body weight are putting a lot of strains on them, I struggle to get up. But until the day they're completely broken, I will always gets up. Limping, I move slowly, scanning around to see if today is finally the day I end my long search. But yet, I failed again.

"Rain, is that you?"

Overjoyed, I can't believe I can hear my name again after a long time, I turn around so fast that my weak legs can't stand properly and  I fall down to the ground. I get up as quick as I fell down, excited to see your face once again, but strangely, you're nowhere to be seen.

"Over here. Can you see me?"

A man who's resting on the pile of the dead bodies keep waving at me but he's not you. I'm brokenhearted yet again, I slowly go back to the ground, I need to take a moment and accept that I failed again to find you.

The man crawls to me. One of his leg is already missing, he won't survive another day. Maybe it's time I also shall not see another day.

"Easy boy. Do you recognize me?" The man talks to me, he pat my head and strangely I let him. Tiredness probably, I can't fight back anymore.

"How did you get here? The bags, the....you still have his stuffs huh? Are you still looking for him?" He's smiling, happy for some reason. I would not be happy if I'm gonna stops breathing soon. Maybe I would, I don't know.

"You still loves to play in the rain?" There! He said my name again? How does he knows? Do I know this man?

But this pisses me off. I don't want the last time I hear my name would be from this random man, I want to hear it from you. So I get up and walks away. I can hear the man started laughing like a maniac behind me. Has he gone mad that he's about to meet his demise?

"I wish my wife was as loyal as you Rain! HA HA HA! My brother! Are you seeing this? Your horse is still looking for you! Everyone loves you! Everyone loves your kind heart. Why do you have to leave us first? WHY SHOULD YOU GO BEFORE YOUR OLD BROTHER HERE AND MAKE MOM CRIED? Oh well, I guess I'll see you soon.

The man has definitely gone mad.

But you don't have to worry, I won't end up like him. As long as my legs allow me, I'll always search for you. In this big world, my journey will always lead to you.

 

THE END.